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[30 Aug 2007|02:26am] |
you choose now to care about me?
you choose now to want to see me
you choose now to say cute things to make me smile.
i really really really really really dont understand you AT ALL!
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[05 Aug 2007|02:55am] |
lmao
BITCHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
=]
I'LL NEVER BE LIKE YOU.
you only care about yourself.
and being a whore.
but everyones used to that.
so its okay. =D
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[28 Jul 2007|04:16pm] |
I hate cleaning..
but finally im done
im in a weird mood.
its deffinately not good..
but its not like completely horrible either?
idk
I got a really bad sunburn at warped tour
and i look like a lobster.
and idk
my shower last night burned.
and it wasnt even that hot.
And im sore...
but warped tour was awesome.
I met a bunch of people that i knew on here..
like Chad, Mack and Alex from Alls Quiet, Nikki, Benn, idk i think there were more but i dont remember.
it was fun.
me and emily just wondered around the whole time.
I saw a bunch of people.
Met a bunch of littler bands and also.
Funeral For A Friend.
The Matches.
Bayside.
and more. i cant remember.
i didnt really see that many performances...
I saw
Haste The Day.
It Dies Today.
Red Jumpsuit Apparatus
1 song of Paramore
part of Hawthorne Heights
Circa Survive
heard some of the Rocket Summer
heard some of Chiodos
heard some of Coheed
heard some of New Found Glory.
idk the line up was alot better last time I went accept for a few that were here this time.
Haste the Day and It Dies Today were prolly my favorites.
I got a drumstick from The Street Drum Corps they were really good, they had so much freaking energy though..
oh and i saw a break dancing thing i cant remember what they were called though.. something monkeys.
And then at Family Values I saw
Droid.
Five Finger Death Punch.
Invitro.
Flyleaf.
Evanescence.
Korn.
and i dont remember who else.
and then I went to Incubus
they were with Simon Daws.
It was a pretty good week.
Tonight I'm having a sleepover with Emily.
and then tomorrow Elaina and Hadley?
because my parents refilled the hottub today.
and then monday i think Elaina again.
and then tuesday i have a doctors appt.
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[23 Jul 2007|03:11pm] |
okay so..
this week has been kinda crazy
First spent the night at Elainas thursday
then friday Jenna stayed the night here.
the saturday Whitney stayed the night
and then sunday Elaina spent the night.
and she might be again tonighttt.
Tomorrow I have an ultrasound to figure out whathefuck is wrong with me..
and then Wednesday is Family Valuessssss with Donovan
and then Thursday is Incubus with My Emilyyyyy =]]
and then Friday is Warped Tour with my emilyyyy and I finally get to meet Chad and maybe Mary.
Its gunna be tiiiightt =]]
haha and Rachel let me borrow her shorts for the concerts =]
They are the same ones I wore to Sounds of the Underground last year =]]
GOOD WEEEEEK.
=D
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[17 Jul 2007|10:06pm] |
Ohhhh and I forgot one.
You miss "i'm perfect"
YOUR NOT FUCKING PERFECT.
If your going to talk about me.
grow some fucking balls instead of talking to my friend about me.
Your little remarks about me behind my back get old.
I dont give a fuck what you think about me anymore.
and I havent for a long time.
and you can talk about people not liking me all you want.
but i know a shit load of people who dont like you either.
So stop acting like you own the town.
and SHUT THE FUCK UP.
k thats all.
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[17 Jul 2007|08:47pm] |
ALOT has happened.
somethings I cant tell.
I hate not being able to talk.
Fuck people.
Fuck all this stupid drama.
Fuck you, go back to where you came from.
Fuck you, LEAVE. please do. it will make things better.
Fuck you. You were never worth my time.
Fuck you. your just a little whore anyway. and I'm pretty sure we dont need you.
Lmao.
well now that I got that out.
Everythings going better.
Made some new friends.
Cut off people i dont need, or as i like to call them "Baggage"
Maybe getting a job soon.
Since I have my license now.
I think im going to 3 concerts in 3 days next week.
Fuckin tiiiighht.
Family Values. Incubus. Warped. <---VIP PASSES =]]
The next like 2 weeks should be really good. =D
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[06 Jul 2007|10:34pm] |
LMAO
right over the head!
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[04 Jul 2007|03:40am] |
lmao we cant wait either.
Believe me.
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[02 Jun 2007|12:24am] |
Honestly. anymore.
just fuck it all.
I'll always be number 2.
im tired of it.
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[24 Apr 2007|04:29pm] |
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My string of long complaints that I've wanted to yell in peoples faces all day.
1.you dont make an ounce of sense.
When are you going to learn?
Honestly.
I'm tired of the same old bitching and yet thats all that matters to you.
SERIOUSLY.
FUCKING GET THE POINT.
your going to be miserable.
&&
2.Boys suck.
End of story.
3.Umm.
And you.
Dont fucking lie to me.
It wont get you anywhere.
Seriously.
Dont tell me something and then lie about it.
And they deny it.
Its not going to work.
Especially when he specifically told me the exact thing you lied about.
HONESTLY GROW SOME FUCKING BALLS.
4.Dont complain to me about my friends when you know I'll chose them over you.
Yeah. you know who I'm talking about.
Lets just sit down and show respect for hating eachother.
Dont drag others into it with you.
5.FUCK THIS MIGRANE.
I'm glad everythings better.
Hadley, && Elaina, && Chelsey.
=]]]]]
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[11 Mar 2007|12:09pm] |
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the viewing was yesterday.
that was so hard.
Seeing his mom there.
Trying so hard not to break down.
I cant even imagine. Todays going to be even harder.
The Funeral.. and then going to his grave site.
They burried him in the cemetary by the library. I dont understand any of it.
I wish I could help. Just everyone.
Especially the people it hit harder than me.
Corey, Chris, Alex. and his entire family.
I just wish I could do something.
Anything really Idk.
I'm nervous for today.
But at the same time.. I'm hopeing this will help set him free.
Not from our hearts but from our worries.
We'll remember him constantly.
But it needs to turn into a good rememberance.
Not something that brings us pain when we remember. He's in a better place.
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[02 Mar 2007|05:47pm] |
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okay day today.
Hung out with Marrrion.
and now Emilys gunna come spend the night.
this week has been really weird.
and Im tired of the throw yourself at amber scene that happened this week.
WTF.
Idk why i disliked it so much.
Isnt it normal to want people to like you?
well it is for me..
and this week it was just to much.
and I just wanted them to go away.
I cant handle a relationship right now.
but they cant seem to understand that.
its like a big game to them.
Do I seriously have to say get the fuck away from me for you to understand?
I dont want to hear sob stories.
I dont want the drama
and I WONT pitty you
Its just annoying.
TAKE A FUCKING HINT.
&& tomorrow probably Chantal.
As for other things. they are going... normal?
idk.
Not as good as I could hope for but Idk.
&& I still have your picture right here.
Its like a constant reminder.
Idk if its a good or bad thing.
Maybe I should jsut get rid of it?
Burn it? idk.
Something just tells me to keep it.
So I have.
Right now im kinda craving grilled cheese.
But theres one problem.
NO GOSH DARN CHEESE!
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[25 Feb 2007|09:09pm] |
so first the washer overflows and starts leaking through the ceiling and into the basement
and i run around the basement trying to find freaking buckets to put under the leaks and i
move the couch across the basement and he comes down and yells at me and says THANKS
FOR NOT DOING ANYTHING. and then he saw the buckets and i told him i moved the couch
to and i didnt even get a freaking appology.
and then..
i just found out that theres this site that he heard about from friends where you can track where a
person is when their cellphone is turned on. and my mom was there when he heard about it. and
he told my mom not to tell me about it. my dad always says he doesnt let me do stuff because
he doesnt trust guys or something, but then he goes and does that and tries to completely take
away any privacy i have.
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[22 Feb 2007|08:19pm] |
so I kinda really liked that whole break concept.
Friday
Went to Big Boy with Alyssa, Katie and Jade.
Then we were gunna go bowling.. but the lanes were all taken.
So we walked to Starbucks.
Wich btw was freaking COLD.
and I couldnt feel anything on my body by the time we got there..
Then spent the night at Katies..
Saturday
Hung out at Katies for a while.
Then came home and Alyssa spent the night.
haha that was alot of fun.
We were laughing alllllllll night..
Sunday
Hung out with Alyssa, Corey and Chris.
Kind of a disaster.. and then we went to see Ghost Rider..
Then went back to Alyssa's to hang out.
Then went home and Emily came over and spent the night.
That was alot of fun to.
Monday
Hung out with Emily for a while..
and then Liz was here for alittle while..
Then they left
Then Chantal came to pick me up.
We met Simona at Baha Fresh.
Then met Donovan, Kevin, Reese, Aaron, Adam, & Justin at Gameworks.
Then Kris and Brandon came up.
Then Donovan and Kevin left.
Then around 11:30 we went to Simonas gym thing.
That was so much freaking fun.
Not gunna get into details
Then Heather met us.
Then Heather, Simona and I went and spent the night at Chantals.
Tuesday
Came home.. then Katie came to get me..
we went to the mall..
Got a bunch of new stuff and then Came home.
So over all it was a pretty freaking amazing break =]
Not to mention I lost 7 pounds...and I got my ddr on.
hahaha I love my life.
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[18 Feb 2007|11:08pm] |
HADLEY AND ELAINA.
seeing as how im pretty sure you guys read this.
I wanted to let you know I saw that guy at big boys the other night..
the one that was flirting.. when we were there with adam and he gave
me a really weird look like he remembered me from that night with you
guys and he got all big eyed and almost gasped and then i didnt see him
for the rest of the time i was there.
just wanted to say that. it kinda made me laugh. and I was thinking about
calling one of you to tell you that and then decided it wasnt a good idea. so
now im just saying it on here.
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[11 Feb 2007|05:44pm] |
Last night was tight.
Im so sore though.
&& he's deffinately a cutie.
Sorted things out with that other person.. kind of.
Atleast there are better terms now. idk =/
GOOOOOOOOODDDDDD WEEKEND!
Friday night.. Jennas.
and then last night katies sweet 16.. then i left with Heather and the gang. it was cool..
then we dropped off Kevin and the weird person and we went to the nugget =]]
Good timessss.
&&& HES STILL A CUTIE. lol
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[03 Feb 2007|08:32pm] |
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Yesterday.
Incubus concert. RESCHEDULED.
So instead Emily and I ate at Max and Ermas and then went to the Messangers.
Pretty fun night in Birmingham.
then Went Cosmic Bowling with Chantal, Simona, Heather, Kevin, Kate, Arron, Greg, Julia and Brendon.
that was fun.
lol.
Today.
Went to the Trio with Chantal and Alex.
HAHA OMFG.
Pushed Chantal around in a computer chair because she hurt her foot.
lol
So funny. walked up to a guy working... "random question.. can I use your chair for a minute?, my friends in need of some assistance."
then we went and picked up katie and came to my house I argued with my dad for a fucking hour to get him to let us go to te mall.
I was "usuing too much attitude" when he said no because he wasnt leaving and I told him we had a ride there and back. so we didnt get to go..
so we went in the hottub instead and hung out in there for a while then chantal left and katie and i hung out.
lol good times.
And chantals coming back in a while to spend the night.
Tomorrow.
Maybe Chaz's still. but im not sure because of chantals foot thing.
and then hanging out.
Fun weekend =]]
Then next weekend.
Katies sweet 16!
FUCK YEAH.
Finding out when incubus is rescheduled too.
=]]]
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[01 Feb 2007|08:25am] |
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Fuck yeah.
Friday incubus concert.
Saturday trio wiff chantal and alex. and katie maybe spending the night.
Cross your fingers for us
Sundayyyyyyy oh what a beautiful day.
going to see Chaz with David and Chantal.
Excitinggggg.
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[30 Jan 2007|08:18pm] |
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WTF! CINDERELLA 3.
CINDERELLA IS A CLASSIC. NUMBER 2 WAS ENOUGH.
BUT A NUMBER 3? I CAN SEE A REMAKE BUT A NUMBER 3?
IT JUST DOESNT WORK.
Eww.
Dummbbbb.
Anyways.
Im like uberly stressed.
This weekend is coming all to fast.
way to fast.
=/
Friday Im ready for.
Sunday im ready for.. but could we just hold off saturday for a couple weeks?
ugh.
I'm not going to say a name for this section.
But you should know who I'm talking about.
I know you have second thoughts about everything thats happened.
And I have this gut feeling your just following the crowd.
Like you miss it. but you dont know if you can be friends.
But what I dont get is why dont you just talk to me about it?
Is it because your afraid of what they will think of you?
Because honestly I've never thought you to care what people say.
And i really hope thats not the case
If that really is the case then stop trying to hide it and just come tell me.
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[27 Jan 2007|03:29pm] |
TONIGHT. AH. ITS TONIGHT.
AND YOU YES YOU. BETTER FUCKING BE THERE.
Everything is feeling good again.
Ive made a few enemys. but so have you.
I guess that just makes us equal in the end.
But ill never stoop as low as you did.
So really it doesnt make us equal.
Youll never be the person I thought you were.
But no I'm not gunna wish pain on you.
Like you caused me.
Because that would just be inhumane.
&& honestly i could care less anymore.
I'm happier now that I have been for a while.
And In a way I guess I have you to thank for that.
You made me see how much I really hated how things were going and myself.
And now I see it all to clearly.
& I never want it back. any of it.
I'm so thankful for the people I have.
Its funny.
I have a whole new veiw on everything I do.
I just seems happier now.
And I realized I let people in to easily.
Thank you all for showing me that.
[no sarcasim intended] I really do appriciate it.
Now I'm gunna go and have fun.
=] FUCK YES.
HEATHER YOUR MY HERO.
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